Friday, November 11, 2005
stop playing games [ip04 class outing post below]
hello :) wanted to blog ystday but was quite sian.. din feel lyk typing.. haha. ya i went for dance prac at ccab on wed, and got somemore injuries :S then went for e perf by imperial russian ballet.. okay la it wasnt really v gd but not bad ;) a number of ppl went, as far as i saw, only gals :P
hmmm i donno if i shld say this here not, but someone once commented i am proud. as in literally arrogant. am i? i hope not, but this person said tt many feel this way. so am i or am i not?
and there's another thing.. i donno too if i shld put it here, but here goes: can someone teach me how to interpret mixed signals? i'm soooo not an expert in this la.. [aft much pressing of e <--backspace key] bahhh okie my point is quit toying wif my emotions! i really donno wat to make of mixed signals.. like it hurts when many gestures seem to suggest positive, yet under public scrutiny everyth vanishes. i donno, prob its a male thing to not make it so obvious, but honestly, it hurts when some things you do lifts my spirits and e nxt thing u do makes u seem indifferent. wat's gg on?
yet, i donno if i'm ready to noe e truth.. to b honest i think i can get quite clingy.. trying to work on tt as well. i mean, each of us have our own lives, i cant be overly possessive, smth i tend to be..
i noe i need patience, but i want to noe e truth as well! i don want to be held in suspense, pulled taut, eventually breaking.
bleahh haha i hope my tone din frighten u off, but yah. i just want to noe e truth.. don worry i'm not like lovesick wif this person or smth (far frm it, really!) but i'm jus not e kind of girl who sits ard waiting for things to happen. lyk 'jus see how loh'. it's jus not me.. i prefer smth concrete, 'yes' or 'no', not 'maybe' 'see how'.
i noe i contradict myself in e sense in r/ships i do not approach a guy first, i'd prefer him to make e first move.. which probably has led me to this prob, like i want e truth, but i don want to make e first move.. but this holds for like studies, things u can achieve la.. i mean, u must make e first move to hit e books mahh, cannot be let e As come to u..
bahh haha okie i think i babbled enuff.. don try to guess who this person is yupp :P tc everyone!
04-ers: when's e nxt class outing? i'll b away from e last few days of nov n first few days of dec.. don plan it during tt time yupp :)
xiao jo
@ 8:22 AM
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